Monday, July 20, 2009

What's a Mom to do?

Well I haven't been on the blog this weekend becasue it was my 54th birthday. Wow...I had a pretty good day. I scrapbooked with a friend and we had a delightful time together and then my family came over for a birthday celebration.

Now here I am this morning at work, feeling a little sad because my 15 year-old daughter and I came head to toe this weekend so she's not talking to me right now. I'm a very sensitive person and I really feel horrible that we had a fight. But I just don't know how to handle these teens today. Back in the day I never fought with my mother. We had such a close relationship my mother and I and when she transitioned in 1998 I was just devasted. My best friend gone!!! I guess I want that same relationship with my daughter, but as she has told me we can't have that kind of relationship because things are different today. How different can things be? What is wrong with family. I am a family person always have been and always will be. What in the world do these kids want. She has a beautiful home to live in, a beautiful room, a study for her to do her school work in, two great parents, we both work and own businesses so we can keep her in the private school she's in. I really try very hard to be certain that she's happy and gets the best that life has to offer. We're involved with our church. She's in Youth of Truth...but I'm wondering what do they want. These teens today are so in to themselves. Instead of communication...they text. What happened to good talking. It frustrates me. Anyway, if there are any moms out there with teenage daughters (or dads) give me some advice. Maybe I'm too close to her I don't know. Maybe I try too hard!!! So, here I am at work my good friend is staying with us so she's been a help watching my daughter while I'm at work. At least she's there if my daughter needs to talk. My friend is here because she's looking for a job. But I believe God sent her here to balance me out. To let me see that I need to relax and let go and let God. I do everything in my house for my family and I guess they've become dependent on that because I've allowed it. But I've always been the one everyone comes to for advice, assistance, you name it...Call Diane. I'm a perfectionist and I like things certain way. I like order, organization in my life and home. I'm just really feeling sad right now...the tears continue to flow and I'm getting tired of crying. I just want simplicity in my life. My family to be whole and happy. What's a mom to do? I've tried to get my daughter involved scrapbooking with me and she refuses...doesn't want to do that. So, I don't know what they want to do.

With that...thanks for listening...Just Sayin'

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